Sun in my Mouth

I will crucify the object of our fascination to reveal the true nature of what you have canonized.

It is finished. I have spilt my blood upon the cross.

This was not the finished product. There was more blood and the following statement was nailed to the bottom.

"First and foremost I must say that this is not limited to nor promoting any one religion. The symbols used are present because they are symbols. The convenience of these images should not limit the message to anything less than all of humanity.

In times of false canonization and undeserved praise, people are constantly searching for subjects to replace that which has been held as holy for generations. These replacements come from all places and none have the right to be elevated to this god like level. These things are exactly that. Things. Empty, vapid, meaningless. They offer false comfort and no value. They lack the key ingredient that makes things worth the investment of humanity. They can not even begin to fill the place of that which came before it.
This happens in all areas of human life. Expression, religion, and thought. People have lost sight of what truly matters. The road is high, but our eyes are all on the ground.

-Karl"

Follow the white rabbit to see more of it.




In other news, I have been playing this religiously because it is exactly that. If you haven't tried this for yourself yet, then you are a heathen and will be punished accordingly. For those who have partaken in the glory that is Vegas 2 then you know exactly what it is I am talking about. I can't go a day without at least indulging my sick sense of humor and glory by killing things in this game.


It is a beautiful thing.

Long, Hard Grind

Goddamn.

On a different note much has come to my attention that needs addressing. I am still struggling with my own projects, trying to get them out. The art don't give it to you. The art don't give you what it is that you thought you wanted. It is much more difficult to get me agree with me on things that are coming out of my head. Even more difficult to convince myself that I am doing the right thing. But even as that last sentence comes out I question it. What is right for me anyway? Who is the dictator of right and wrong for each of us? Is it inside? What is it? Maybe if I can find it inside I can cut it out and get rid of it. Maybe then, when that right and wrong judge is gone, I will feel at least a little more freedom. Maybe I can move a little better, act on my feelings, and not feel like I am wasting time. When I get asked, "What am I doing?" I won't feel like kicking myself in the balls.

I have no answer for these questions when asked of me, and that is the biggest insult.

And even then I ask why I feel so lost. I know what I am doing is right. I know how it feels to be in the moment of fascination. I know that what I am saying through my actions is something that must be said by someone, somewhere. I have to believe that. The real question is how do those of us who think in these ways live during a time when the pendulum of pop culture is swing back to its other extreme? We are in a time of disillusions and infidelities. People walk with their heads down and eyes closed, avoiding any kind of absolution. The pendulum has begun its return to the other side when we will return to a mass awaking of the senses and a rekindling of the mind. Returning to my question though, how do we live in the mid swing? Those of us born in a time like this where everything is so bland and we have no heroes of our own. This is what leads to a mystification of the past and a fear of the future. But I say we grin and bear it. We take it on the chin and await a time to come. I believe I will see the human spirit renewed. I know of key players who have the capacity to do it. It may get worse before it gets better, but the point is it will get better. We are being forged by fire. That is the truth. Fire licks at our flesh and for what reason? TO TEACH US! Learn from this fire so that we can cut the pendulum and free ourselves from the back and forth nature of our world, return to Eden, and experience real life.

What's out there isn't real. What is real is what is in your body, in your mind, and in your soul.

Keep your eyes up.