21 August 2008

I had been anticipating this film since I heard it was in creation. Even thought it was released on the 4th of July ano domini 2008, it only recently was available near me. I would not go into this film looking to learn what Dr. Thompson thought. For that you should, and you should be anyway even if you aren't looking to learn anything, read his collection of books. True patriotism. Nevertheless, one should view this piece of work with wide open eyes. After watching it, I walked outside, said my good byes to the like minded friends, got in my car, and couldn't help but cry. This was brought on by several things. The most obvious being the regrettable loss of the Gonzo journalist. While I do not blame him for taking his own life, he is desperately needed in the coming times. The break in my composure was also do to the content of the film. After looking at his life, his times, and comparing them to what we live in now, it is suffocating. Times when idealism was what we feared and not economic power. Times when who is elected doesn't make a difference because the position of president is a neutered dog. Times when our nation was not dissolving itself from the inside by destroying any idea of American nationalism. We are throwing away our workforce, our pride, our own identity. Times when our system wasn't just an illusion of control. Our gluttony wasn't unbearable. The final weight was the simple fact that people as a whole just don't care. The theater was close to empty, not to mention most theaters won't even carry the movie. Why? Because people don't want to see it. They won't pay for it. It's all about the money. Christ. Goddamn lizards. All slithering toward the giant cash cow. My generation is caught up in their own uselessness and ungrounded life. They don't care. Apathy is their cloak. No not their cloak, their trophy! THEIR FUCKING TROPHY!! THEY ARE PROUD OF THEIR DISPASSIONATE NATURE!!! IT IS A COMPETITION TO THEM!!!! THEY WHERE IT AROUND THEIR NECK LIKE IT IS A SYMBOL OF POWER!! christ. It makes me feel so small. They don't care. They call Hunter a freak. And when he embraced the freak term they called him crazy. Persecution is the name of the game. This is one of the beautiful things about Hunter's death. He showed them that he was the only one who could take his life. He was a genius which makes it all the more tragic that no one cares. As I have said before, the apathy is more angering then anything else. If you hate me, HATE ME!! Don't be so fucking passive aggressive about it. HATE ME!!! AND BE DAMN PROUD OF IT! Don't crumble when challenged. STICK TO YOUR GODDAMN PRINCIPLES! SHOW ME THAT YOU HAVE SOME!

We are a time without principles. Principles are viewed as evil. But our culture does not know what evil truly is. They have no idea.

14 August 2008

The Patient

A groan of tedium escapes me,
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here.

Wait it out,
Gonna wait it out,
Be patient (wait it out).

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.

If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.

And I still may ... (sigh) ... I still may.

Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself of this.

And if there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may.

Gonna wait it out.

06 August 2008

Back; the Double Entendre

I went home Saturday night, or to be more accurate Sunday morning, thinking. I sat down when I had some time to really think and began to play music as I often do. I found myself with a pen in my hand and writing feverishly.

The product was this.

The Man in the story is the name you will see. He is mankind. He is a dying breed.